Thirty Years

Who am I

I'm someone delighted by the simplicity of my world. I'm lucky and blessed for reasons unknown, and I'm not really looking for anything in this life. I dont think about getting married, buying a house, starting a business. I'm satisfied overall with my situation becuase 1) it's my situation, so I better learn to be happy with it and 2) the situation was not fully planned, and this considered, it could be much worse. I look to enrich my life with true relationships, keen eyes, strong work ethic and a positive mindset.

I'm not a genius, but i'm well educated. I'm well educated, but i'm not too particular in my language. I'm not a millionaire, but I'm able to have many of the things I want. Right now I want books, music, coffee and tea - I want deeply personal experiences. Quiet time. I have travelled, but I don't care to travel the world, I dont care to plan elaborate itineraries, and I don't want things that make life more complicated than it already is. I move at a slow pace. I am opinionated and I'm not too keen on holding anyones hand, but I am always open to help where I can. It is important for me to be a good coworker, a good roommate, a good houseguest, a good client, a good friend. I am very friendly up close, but I do not care to be anyones friend and I am good at not comparing myself to others. I take my relationships extremely seriously, and I have high expectations and dreams for each one of them. I carry similar expectations and dreams for myself. I do not play games, and I need my friends to be strong individuals.

I am a very hazy individual, but I have clarity of the heart. I am extremely gracious and humble towards my perception of this world above all else. I have food, water and shelter. I am able to enjoy capitalist luxuries! My environment is safe, and my community is full of life. I would feel guilty asking the universe for more than this, so I truly savor this moment because it could be taken away at a moment's notice.

I'm not stupid, and I am not a fool.

What do I want

I want the things I have.

I want to be heavily steeped in the field of arts and design for the rest of my life. I want to be enabled to do things that promote growth. I want to research, share the research, and create a feedback loop. I want to criticize, advise, and be consulted with. I want to know more, learn more always. I want keynote speeches, panel discussions, Q&A's, and good moderation. I want provoking interviews and groundbreaking journalism. I want more questions. I want explorative conversations to happen in expertly-designed offices, salons and atriums. I want liberation, justice and humanity to be the focus of these conversations.

I want more considersation. I want my roommate to consider my existence in regard to her choices. I want my friends to consider my interests when making plans. I want my job to consider me when it comes to growth opportunities. I want people on the sidewalk to consider me when they see me walking, all in the same way that I consider them. When it comes to love, I want a distubingly quiet mutual obsession. I want someone that fits in seamlessly, or whisks me away entirely.

I want to relax at home. I want cartoons in the background, a cup of tea or coffee and an english muffin. I want to clean the house with the windows open. I want cool, breezy days and warm nights. I want a healthy schedule, a healthy body, a healthy wallet. I want a snatched waist, slim physique and long hair. I want cute undergarments, silver accessories and the perfect bag.

I want new systems, accountability, diplomacy and world peace. There are a lot of things I want to disregard. I want the planet to heal, I want wealth redistribution and more empathy. I want more common sense, more awareness.

How am I

Im pretty scorned by the ways of the world, and very scarred by some of my personal interactions with others. Interactions with strangers, interactions at home, interactions with family, friends and acquaintances. I'm bored and tired of the malaise. I'm a little anxious, and very annoyed. I'm also delighted at the sheer beauty and wonder of my world. The places i've been able to go to, the things experiecned that really humbled me or changed my worldview. The people I met! I am unsure about the state of the world, but hopeful that my community will be okay regardless.